I have come to know that my steps backwords are due to shame, guilt and fear embossed on my emotions early in life by my family of origin (Virginia Satir). It is time to release that and move on or as they say in the martial arts re-direct and move forward. Where I have little drag is in the new physical pursuits of triathlons, marathons, and a new bod. There is little to no shame anchoring me to the “I am not worthy or derserving.” Cash flow and the overall management and leadership with $$ is a different matter for me. It can be simple if I let it. Once I let go and stop controlling or making wrong. Once I accept full and complete responsibility then it will all calm down.